Dear God. Thank You for providing for me and my family! You take care of us in so many ways. Thank You for a random check from our health insurance of all places. To me, that makes it clear that it was You. Sorry… I don’t know why I differentiate… I know it’s ALL You! Thank You for giving Meagan & I patience for me getting a job. Thank You for allowing me to get out of CR, and for the understanding of those around me! Lord please continue to give me direction in my life! I don’t want to do what is not Your purpose for me! Even work for Dave Ramsey or iThemes. I know that what You have planned for me is ultimate. Please be with the entire Winstead family right now! What’s going on with Keith and Debbie is insane! Please give them each the serenity, courage and wisdom to do the right thing, whatever that is! Lord I love You, and trust You. You are my rock!

Dear God, please give me wisdom. Wisdom to say the right words, and wisdom to make the right decision. I know that You have guided me to quit CR, but God please know that if You still want me to do it, I will! Send me Lord, I’ll go! Seriously… Right now I sit here afraid to say those words, but knowing full well that I absolutely want what You want for me, because I know it’s best! Lord please help me to connect with You again and to have faith. Some days it’s really hard, and it’s not because You haven’t provided for us, but because I don’t know what to do, & feel purposeless. I’ve definitely found purpose in searching for a job, so I thank You for that. Lord please give me job… But seriously, only if it’s the right thing for me right now. If You want to keep grooming me for something greater, than I trust You. If that’s the case please give me some of that peace that passes understanding. I love You and love talking to You when I can hear You. God, please help me make some goals in the next few weeks and to keep journaling, even if it means waking up early!