Proverbs 23

God, thank You for all that You have done in my life, especially for all the work You have provided me in the last couple of weeks. It really is amazing! Thank You that it’s in development and that i am enjoying it! Lord, i pray You’ll give me wisdom in my quest for employment. If moving away is not what You want, i pray that You would make it crystal clear, and i trust You to do so! Please give me favor among men, and that i would stand out as a person that they would want. Thank You for Your blessings and Your providence, and the gifts You have given me. Help me to be successful in the things i do, and that the world would see that i am a craftsman blessed by You, and that i would glow with You. I love You!

I also pray that You would speak to my heart about what You would like me to do about the human trafficking issue. i pray for all those around the world, that You would be their comforter!

And Lord, one more request… i am having such a hard time with CR sometimes, and other times, i’m so fired up! God, i pray that You would use me in CR to the extent that You need, and that if You don’t want me here, that You again would make it clear, and i trust You to do so! i love You and trust You to take care of me, even though sometimes i can be so ungrateful and shortsited!

Our Daily Bread – Mark 2:13-17<\a>

God I pray You’ll help me to stand out with these companies in Wilmington… I pray You’ll give me the words I need to make the right impression with who I really am. Thank You for these last few days and how invigorated I’ve been! Lord You know how bad I want this and how bad I want to provide for my family! And if that means painting than I beg You to give me the grace to deal with that!

God I pray that You’ll help me to remember that there’s more to life than my petty wants and desires. I pray that You would give me an opportunity today to show Your love to someone… Especially an unbeliever. I love You!

Ok I’m applying to a bunch of jobs in Wilmington and elsewhere. God I pray that I’ll get a good design job in Wilmington. I don’t understand Your ways sometimes and I don’t think I actually want to know what the future holds but God I just pray for this. I have been waiting for something. I pray that this is what makes it all worth it! I pray I’ll get a job and we’ll start to pay down debt. I pray that You’ll give me favor in the site of employers. Lord I love You and trust You with my future.

Proverbs 10

He who gathers in summer is a prudent son, but he who sleeps in harvest is a son who brings shame.

Lord, I can’t help but wonder if the one who is sleeping in the harvest… God You know I want to do what you want… Even if that means staying here and starting my own business. I don’t know what I’m so afraid of… But it seems like right now I’m afraid of everything! Lord I know this spirit of fear does not come from You so I beg You to take it away from me! I want to have the kind of confidence in You that I know I have had before and I know it can be even stronger than that… But also I know that in some ways that will come when I know what to do with my life!

Lord I also pray You’ll help me with my bitterness/irritation with Kellie! I don’t know why I get so upset with her, but I pray You’ll give me compassion and wisdom with her. I also pray that You would be with her. Please give her a purpose to understand that it’s all about You. I know I didn’t get that when I was her age!

Please forgive me for being so arrogant and judgmental. I think CR is getting somewhat distant and so I really need to connect with You more!

Thank You for allowing/causing me to set that guardrail with my phone! If I haven’t written I here: if I look at ANYTHING pornographic or purposely lustful, then I will get rid of my iPhone and go back to a “dumb” phone! Help me to maintain my purity, and help my yes to always be yes, and my no, no.

Ok and the big thing on my mind: Lord, I really want this job with Dave Ramsey! Lord, I know You know this, but I’m voicing it here. But more than this job, I want Your perfect will for me. I admit, I have no idea what that is… I admit, You have used crazy circumstances to cause some pretty cool things in my life so I shouldn’t question this holding pattern You have me in right now.

But You said, “you have not because you ask knot” so I’m asking for a job… A job where I can fill Your purpose in this life. I’m feeling food vibes about this dave Ramsey job right now but I know You are able, and willing to give me a Great job.

Lord, I love You and trust You with all the trust I can muster!

Proverbs 6 and Our Daily Bread

Dear God.. i am about to fill out some applications for Dave Ramsey’s organization.  i pray that You would give me clarity and wisdom as to what i should write and present.  Lord, You know exactly what You’re doing and i pray that i would do whatever it is that You want me to do.  i pray that If this is the right decision, that Vic and Cindy would be ok with it, and if it’s not that You’ll give me the wisdom to know.  Lord, i just have so much fear built up inside of me, and i just pray that You’ll help me to push through it and DO it!  Just DO IT!  Lord, i know that You are so strong, and i just pray that You’ll give me some of that strength.  i pray that You’ll give me a good job, or find good work, and that i would do it to the best of my ability.  Thank You for all You’ve done for me!  It really is amazing!  i love YOU!!

Purpose Driven Life, Chapter 40

Well God… I just finished PDL and I don’t feel like I’m much closer to my purpose than when I started…. And for some reason the bills keep going up and the income is not. Lord, You have provided for us in amazing ways for the last two years since I lost my job! Lord, I want you to know that I am committed to do whatever You want me to do! And I’m not kidding! I know the plans You have for me are plans to prosper not harm me so I can trust Your direction in my life. So I just pray that You would show me my next step! God You know my heart and You know I’m skittish. With CR I’m either up or I’m down. I never have 100% peace. I guess I don’t expect You to give me that, but I know You can help me figure out my purpose and fill it! Please give me peace and direction, and help me lead my family well! I trust this day to Your care. I trust that whatever I do would be with Your help and direction. I love You!

Edit: I just read September 18th and I prayed You would help me break out of my isolation. I do feel like You have helped me break out of that. Thank You for that answer to prayer!