proverbs 27

6Faithful are(F) the wounds of a friend;
profuse are the kisses of an enemy.

Lord, my mind is going crazy in a good way right now! i have tons of energy and ideas flying in. Please help me to get them all down and for me to do the right thing with them. Thank You for giving us renters all this time now i pray that You’ll help us to do the right thing now with our mortgage. We cannot afford it and now we have a baby on the way. Please give us wisdom as i talk to the guy about buying our property and stuff. Help us to just do the right thing.

And please give me wisdom as i deal and talk with Keith. Help me to remember that verse i put up there. That i don’t have to keep the wounds from happening… That they are faithful, and for a greater purpose. Please give me the backbone that i need to talk to him. Lord, i love You!

Please give me favor in the eyes of men, that i might be successful, and start to bring in money. Lord, You know what i need! You also made many promises about seeking Your kingdom first. i feel like i have been, i feel like i try to, and on top of that, like today, i very often am turning my life and will over to YOu, and i trust that if i’m not putting Your kingdom first, that You’ll let me know! i’m trusting You for it! Lord this trust thing is the best thing in the world. Thank You for giving it to me!

Please help me to be a great husband and dad. i want to prove to them that i love them through my actions, not just my words! Lord, help me find the balance between work and family, and obligations with Vic, and church, etc… Lord, i love YOU!

Please give me wisdom today, and Lord, i absolutely turn this day over to You! i want to do only what You want me to do, and i trust that You will give me the words to say!

Proverbs 22:29 Do you see a man skillful in his work? He will stand before kings; he will not stand before obscure men.

Ok, God… well things are getting crazy, and i need to know what You would have me do! My options as i see them: 1) finish my website and start promoting myself as a business. 2) Work on my portfolio only using online tools, and try to get a real job. 3) Go do manual labor again; painting, carpentry, etc.

Lord, i don’t know what You want for me, but i am yielding my life over to You. i trust that whatever You want me to do, that i’ll do it! i don’t know why things happen the way they do. i just know that You are in charge and absolute control. The economy doesn’t matter in the big picture. Life may get really hard… i pray it doesn’t, but Lord, You know what we need!

In Your Proverb, you said a man skillful in his work will stand before kings, not before obscure men… Lord, i’m not exactly sure what that means, but it implies to me a better paycheck. Lord, You have made me to be skillful in my work… in practically any thing that i do, You bless my work. Lord, please help me to get paid for this competency and skill! i know i’m not the best ever at all these things, but Lord, i know i can handle stuff! Please give me work that will pay our bills! Lord, i don’t want to lose our townhome in MN! i want to be able to pay our bills and get renters for that place! Lord, You know the desires of my heart better than i do. Right now, i’m not sure i know anything except that i want to provide for my family!

Lord, please give me wisdom and peace right now to make the right decision and provide for my family! Not only do i want to provide for my family, but i want to be generous to those around us! Right now, we’re being offered generosity by those around us, and it’s been a major blessing! Also, Meagan’s job is amazing! Lord, thank You for Your provision for us, and how much You have done for us up to this point! i know Your hand is on my life. Help me to keep my faith and to continue to trust You!

Proverbs 19:
1 Better is a poor person who walks in his integrity
than one who is crooked in speech and is a fool.

21 Many are the plans in the mind of a man,
but it is the purpose of the LORD that will stand.

Two thoughts.. the first… It is better to maintain my integrity than to be making a lot of money. Thank You for making that a priority in my life! i pray that You continue to do that. Please provide for our financial needs right now, and give us wisdom to do the right thing. thank You for Troy’s offer to Meagan and i about taking over for Jenny.
that brings me to the second thought… that we can come up with many plans, but it is Your purposes that will stand! Lord, i pray that Your purposes will be made clear to us and that we’ll do the right thing.

Proverbs 16

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2 All the ways of a man are pure in his own eyes,
but the LORD weighs the spirit.
3 Commit your work to the LORD,
and your plans will be established.

7 When a man’s ways please the LORD,
he makes even his enemies to be at peace with him.

9 The heart of man plans his way,
but the LORD establishes his steps.

20 Whoever gives thought to the word will discover good,
and blessed is he who trusts in the LORD.
21 The wise of heart is called discerning,
and sweetness of speech increases persuasiveness.

25 There is a way that seems right to a man,
but its end is the way to death.

30Whoever winks his eyes plans[d](AU) dishonest things;
he who(AV) purses his lips brings evil to pass.

32 Whoever is slow to anger is better than the mighty,
and he who rules his spirit than he who takes a city.
33 The lot is cast into the lap,
but its every decision is from the LORD.
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Lord, so many good things in Your Word today! Lord, i pray that You’ll help me to live these things today! Lord, thank You for Your sovereignty and for the fact that You are in absolute control, whatever that mean! That no matter what, i don’t have to worry! That You are there by my side, and ready to love me and help me. Lord, i commit my ways to You! i don’t always know what that means, but for starters i know it starts by doing this! Lord, i commit this day into Your hands, and i pray that You’ll do with me and with it what You would please! i pray that You’ll help me to be a yielded vessel! i pray that You’ll give me the words i need to say tonight! i pray that Your Spirit will absolutely wash over that place tonight!!! i want it to be so obvious that this is Your desire, and that Your stamp is on it. And Lord, if it’s not i trust that You will help me to change my mind… that i would see the error of my ways! God, i thank You for what You have done in that ministry, and in the lives of those that attend CR. i pray that You’ll help us to do the right thing! i pray that You’ll give the right people the passion, courage, and diligence they need along with me to start this thing back up… And if it’s not me to start it back up, i pray that You would bring the right person. i really just want to do whatever it is that You want me to do! i love You soooo much! i pray that You’ll help me with the Keith situation. i pray You’ll give me wisdom and the humility i need to speak to Keith. i pray that You’ll help me get past my strange fear of failure i have around Keith, and help me just to remember that i’m trying to do what You want me to do… And God, You said, “3 Commit your work to the LORD,
and your plans will be established.”
So i am committing, and trusting… because i cannot please You on my own… not without You helping me to do the right thing.. But i am absolutely committing to do whatever it is You ask me to do. Lord i trust that You will help me to know what is You want me to do also. Lord, i give this day to You and yield my life and will to You today! thank You for being here with me, and giving me wisdom about what to do! i love You!

Lord, take my life and make it wholly Thine;
Fill my poor heart with Thy great love divine.
Take all my will, my passion, self, and pride;
I now surrender, Lord—in me abide. —Orr

-Our Daily Bread

God, now i am coming to You clouded… before reading, i just wanted to talk to You, but made a rule that i had to read first…thank You that there are no rules to coming to You! That You are our high priest, and we have direct access to You. Well, we’ve decided to take a break from CR for a couple months. i don’t know why, but i’m struggling with the “couple months” idea. God, please give me wisdom and humility, and also confidence that this is the right decision when i tell people about it. Thank You for the support i’ve received till now. Please give me a renewed passion for CR if this is what You want for me. Lord, i don’t want to lead something that i’m not passionate about.. i also don’t want to be a greedy, selfish, ungrateful person…. who’s been waiting for this kind of leadership, and now i’m struggling with it. Lord, again, i feel taking a break is the absolute right thing for me and us…. Please pour a passion for the people that can be reached back into me!!! i want the same thing i want from the rest of our leadership… a renewed passion and vision for CR… that will set a fire under me, and i will not regret how much time it’s taking or having to vacuum or things like that… that i’ll understand what is that guys like Paul understood. that ministry is hard work, but it’s worth it! So i beg You, that You will give me a renewed passion/vision along with the rest of our key leadership. Lord, thank You for Your amazing grace! Thank You for working in my life. Lord, speaking of my life… i need accountability and encouragement as i look for work… or a job. Please help me and encourage me as i look for work. Thank You for so faithfully providing for us! Please help us to remain grateful, and to stay yielded to Your will. All i want to do is what You want us to do! i mean that! i’ve been saying that over and over, and i pray that it happens!

Proverbs 8

wow God.. You really know how to shake things up! i’m not sure where You want to take CR, but i know i have a whole lot of peace now that i’m considering having CR take a break! Lord, i know Your ways are perfect! i pray that You’ll help us to do the right thing, and make the right decision! Lord, i pray that You’ll give everyone a peace about it, and that we’ll yield to Your will. Lord, i yield my life to You! i don’t know what You want me to do, but i know it’s not going to be easy! i pray You’ll give me the strength and wisdom i need to do the right thing, and to make the right decisions, and to absolutely bring You the glory in everything we do at GC. Lord, my passion for CR was ignited by seeing people change around me. It was really amazing what was happening. Lord, now i look around and it’s like the desolation! Everyone is hurting and wounded… everyone is going through their own junk. Everyone is trying to find something or someone to blame. i pray that You’ll re-focus us all on You. Fix our eyes on You, and noone else. Lord, i pray that You’ll bless us. Lord, i pray that You’ll give us love and faithfulness… that we’ll bind them around our neck. You said it is impossible to please you without faith. i pray that i’ll have the kind of faith that pleases You! Lord, You are amazing, and i love You! Please give me wisdom! i’m overexcited right now… unless this is You… i pray that if it’s not You, that i’ll reconnect to You, and that if it is You, that it would keep growing strong. Lord, i put this day, my emotions, my conversations, CR, GC, my family, my words, my actions completely in Your hands! i trust You to hold me up and to act for me. You said, in
Philippeans 2:12 Therefore, my dear friends, as you have always obeyed—not only in my presence, but now much more in my absence—continue to work out your salvation with fear and trembling, 13for it is God who works in you to will and to act according to his good purpose.

i trust You to will and to act in me according to Your good purpose!

God, here i am… i am empty and dry and i need you. i don’t know why i’m so upset and on edge… Although, i do believe it might have something to do with not having accountability. Lord, i pray You’ll give me wisdom about getting and keeping the right kind of accountability. i need somebody! But truly what i really need is YOU! and sometimes, i just don’t remember that or rely on that, or remember all the good that’s happening, or believe in the good that will happen. Lord, i’m finding myself wanting to control so many circumstances around me. No matter what i do, it doesn’t matter! If i cannot control a circumstance, than You are in control of it. If CR falls to the ground, it’s ok because You are over it! If You want all the hurting people in BrunsCo to find out about CR, You will make it happen! Lord, i pray You’ll give me wisdom for what to do each day with CR i pray You’ll give me the wisdom & strength to do the things that i need to do that i don’t want to do. Right now, i really feel like i’ll do whatever it takes. For some reason, every week that i have to speak, i become vulnerable to my emotions, and thoughts. i’m just going to confess it to You and just give it to You palms up. God, please give me the kind of faith that pleases You! i want it so bad! Lord, for today, i am going to commit to have faith… to just trust You with everything that’s going on. You are absolutely in charge, and that’s all i need! i love You! Thank You for the grace You’re already giving me today and for the grace You don’t quit giving me. Thank You for the guys around me who are changing and for the people around me who ARE giving back in so many ways. Lord, You are majestic, You are loving, You are caring, You are powerful, You are to be feared, You are provisional, You are generous, You are consistent, You are trustworthy, You are gracious, You are available, You are personal.

Good morning! Thank You for the rain, and for the cleansing feeling it brings! thank You also for the peace it brings. Lord, i don’t thank You enough for the things You do for me. Please forgive me for being woefully ungrateful! The kinds of miracles You’ve performed in my life, and the fact that i deserve the exact opposite of that is an amazing testament to Your grace! Thank You for Your amazing grace in my life, and in the life of all those around me! Thank You for Mitch’s newfound look in his eyes… Lord, i pray that this would be his healing! i pray that he would find “the way out” that you promised in Your Word. i pray that he would use the tools that You have given him to succeed. i pray that You will move him into incredible areas of ministry! Lord, please forgive me for my doubting… it’s so easy to doubt when i all i think about is my own incompetency! Lord, i pray that You will operate through me and through my incompetency… i don’t know why but i struggle so much with being disciplined and sitting here doing my work… i wander all around the internet looking for something to justify my distraction. Lord, i pray for Your annointing on me. i pray it for the benefit of all those hearers on Friday night… i pray it for my leadership in CR. i pray it for my own benefit, that i’ll know You’re calling is on my life. i don’t know of anything more satisfying! And the cool thing is that i can say that literally! Lord, thank You thank You thank You! i pray that everything i do today would be guided and directed by YOU! i love YOu!