Purpose Driven Life, Chapter 20

Thank You God, for reminding me that there were many times in the Bible where You wanted to kill Your own children. The reason was they they were being morons, but the fact still remains: Sometimes children are moronic and stir up wrath. Lord I need this reminder as we’re dealing with Mia lately. Her absolute refusal to play soccer has been a huge source of disappointment, anger and angst in our household.. mostly between Meagan and I. It’s so difficult for us to know what to do. It just seems that she’s content with blatantly disobeying us, and we’re not sure what to do to be “good parents.” I’m having a very difficult time not being bitter and resentful to Mia. Lord, I know she’s a sinner just like I am, but I’m having such a hard time having mercy on her. One of the main reasons it’s so difficult is because I don’t sense a humble spirit it in her at all. She’s proud of the fact that she doesn’t care that she can’t watch tv or only have one desert a day. I’m at my wit’s end because I don’t even know what punishment will work with her. In fact, I feel like like most of our punishments do little with her, but rather make her upset she got caught more than anything. So needless to say, i’m frustrated.

And on top of that (or maybe because of this), I’m not reading Your word or speaking to You. I feel cut off from You and I’m disappointingly aware of the fact that it’s my fault. I’ve neglected You and wonder why I feel neglected by You.

Lord, I pray You will give me a supernatural strength and urging to do the right thing! And Lord, I pray that You’ll give Meagan and i the supernatural strength and wisdom to deal with Mia the right way! I love You.

Tags: discontent, Mia, parenting, struggles

Purpose Driven Life, day's 17-18

Lord, I thank You for all You are doing and have done in my life. It’s incredible how you have blessed me, especially when it comes to my work! It’s amazing to love what you do and to be recognized for the work that you love. I love You and i’m very sorry that I have neglected Your Word, and my relationship with You. I get so caught up in the business of life, that I forget You, the author of life. Lord, I pray that You’ll help me to get back on track. Help me to meet with the right people and to give back since You’ve given so much to me! Please help me to take this reading through PDL seriously. Lord, I pray that You’ll also give us wisdom/direction about when and where we should move, and what we should do financially. I feel like we have been doing things a bit our own way, and I just want to get back to doing them Your way. Lord, thank You for the gift of new life in Meagan’s belly and I just pray that You’ll keep them both safe. Lord, I pray that You will help Meagan to feel better and to not have to deal with the nautia and acid reflux. Lord You are the healer and You can heal her! I thank You for her and our kids. Please give us wisdom to deal with Mia as she’s refusing to play soccer. Help us to the right thing by her. Lord, I love You. I’ll talk to You later! Hopefully sooner than later this time. :(