Philippians 1

21For to me, to live is Christ and to die is gain.

Lord, i know the reality of this has not sunk in with me. i keep finding myself having doubts and fears and worries, and judgements and justifications. Lord, i pray that i would be broken over You… i want to be true, that for me to live is Christ! Lord, i know that eternity is going to be amazing… i’ve really come a long way in my understanding of that. However, i still get stuck down here thinking about myself and myself only. i get so wrapped up in my own desires and feelings and when i am self-centered, i am definitely not Christ-centered. Please forgive me! i want to be a willing, humble and broken servant that wants to do whatever You have for me. Not this self-centered, egotistical, afraid, approval addicted, narcissistic, complaining, impatient person that i am being! Please give me wisdom and a PASSION…. A GOD ORIENTED PASSION for whatever it is that You have me to do. Lord, You know my bent… to do whatever falls in my lap. Please please please give me wisdom to know what to do, and to do it well! Lord, i love You so much and just want to please You. i want to be yeilded… isn’t that the whole point of CR? to become yielded vessels for You? Thank You for Your hand in my life. i’m sorry i’ve been ungrateful. i pray for Daniel. Give him the widom and strength to move away from his control issues. i also pray for Joel. i don’t know what You have for him, but i know he’s having a hard time. Give him the grace he needs to deal with this stuff and also Kim…. i have no idea how hard it is for her, but it definitely seems hard! i love You… please give me a productive day filled with doing only the things You would have me to do!!!!