Lord, take my life and make it wholly Thine;
Fill my poor heart with Thy great love divine.
Take all my will, my passion, self, and pride;
I now surrender, Lord—in me abide. —Orr

-Our Daily Bread

God, now i am coming to You clouded… before reading, i just wanted to talk to You, but made a rule that i had to read first…thank You that there are no rules to coming to You! That You are our high priest, and we have direct access to You. Well, we’ve decided to take a break from CR for a couple months. i don’t know why, but i’m struggling with the “couple months” idea. God, please give me wisdom and humility, and also confidence that this is the right decision when i tell people about it. Thank You for the support i’ve received till now. Please give me a renewed passion for CR if this is what You want for me. Lord, i don’t want to lead something that i’m not passionate about.. i also don’t want to be a greedy, selfish, ungrateful person…. who’s been waiting for this kind of leadership, and now i’m struggling with it. Lord, again, i feel taking a break is the absolute right thing for me and us…. Please pour a passion for the people that can be reached back into me!!! i want the same thing i want from the rest of our leadership… a renewed passion and vision for CR… that will set a fire under me, and i will not regret how much time it’s taking or having to vacuum or things like that… that i’ll understand what is that guys like Paul understood. that ministry is hard work, but it’s worth it! So i beg You, that You will give me a renewed passion/vision along with the rest of our key leadership. Lord, thank You for Your amazing grace! Thank You for working in my life. Lord, speaking of my life… i need accountability and encouragement as i look for work… or a job. Please help me and encourage me as i look for work. Thank You for so faithfully providing for us! Please help us to remain grateful, and to stay yielded to Your will. All i want to do is what You want us to do! i mean that! i’ve been saying that over and over, and i pray that it happens!