Proverbs 17:22 A joyful heart is good medicine, but a crushed spirit dries up the bones.

Phew… God, i don’t know what to do! all i know is that i need You… i need Your wisdom and your direction, and Your Holy Spirit. Lord, i pray that You’ll help me to respond to Jayme’s email both in action and word, the way that You would want me to… in humility and with wisdom.. and above reproach. Lord, You are doing some crazy things in our church, and i don’t know how i feel about it! i also don’t know where i sit with it. Please please please give me wisdom and give me rest for my soul. i don’t like the idea of Generations not being my church… i love this church. But i also want to be where You want to be! Lord if that’s here to be part of the solution, please give me peace and clarity toward that. Lord, i’m also trusting You to tell me which i guess will be an answer to the rest of that prayer, what i should do about CR. If You want me to be in charge and to run with it, give me the tools!!! i feel like in some ways, i’ve been left on my own, but i also know better. i know that i never could have made some of these decisions w/o You. i pray that You’ll just give me wisdom and help me to get back on track! Lord, i hate being far from You… i hate losing You, and i hate being stuck with my own thoughts. i’m so helpless w/o You it’s not even funny! i just pray that You’ll WASH over me in the next couple weeks. Give me peace, wisdom, and clarity for my future! i know You can and i know You will! i love You so much!!! Please help me to be a good daddy for Mia tonight. i love You!