Proverbs 10
He who gathers in summer is a prudent son, but he who sleeps in harvest is a son who brings shame.
Lord, I can’t help but wonder if the one who is sleeping in the harvest… God You know I want to do what you want… Even if that means staying here and starting my own business. I don’t know what I’m so afraid of… But it seems like right now I’m afraid of everything! Lord I know this spirit of fear does not come from You so I beg You to take it away from me! I want to have the kind of confidence in You that I know I have had before and I know it can be even stronger than that… But also I know that in some ways that will come when I know what to do with my life!
Lord I also pray You’ll help me with my bitterness/irritation with Kellie! I don’t know why I get so upset with her, but I pray You’ll give me compassion and wisdom with her. I also pray that You would be with her. Please give her a purpose to understand that it’s all about You. I know I didn’t get that when I was her age!
Please forgive me for being so arrogant and judgmental. I think CR is getting somewhat distant and so I really need to connect with You more!
Thank You for allowing/causing me to set that guardrail with my phone! If I haven’t written I here: if I look at ANYTHING pornographic or purposely lustful, then I will get rid of my iPhone and go back to a “dumb” phone! Help me to maintain my purity, and help my yes to always be yes, and my no, no.
Ok and the big thing on my mind: Lord, I really want this job with Dave Ramsey! Lord, I know You know this, but I’m voicing it here. But more than this job, I want Your perfect will for me. I admit, I have no idea what that is… I admit, You have used crazy circumstances to cause some pretty cool things in my life so I shouldn’t question this holding pattern You have me in right now.
But You said, “you have not because you ask knot” so I’m asking for a job… A job where I can fill Your purpose in this life. I’m feeling food vibes about this dave Ramsey job right now but I know You are able, and willing to give me a Great job.
Lord, I love You and trust You with all the trust I can muster!