God, I’m so ashamed, sad, & dejected after masturbating this morning for the first time since living at dreamweaver court. I wish I could go back in time. It’s feels what I imagine losing your virginity may feel like. Lord I pray that you and Meagan will forgive me as well as myself. I also pray that you’ll help me to stick with this year Bible reading plan and that it will be transformative. I pray that you’ll help me to be a Bette husband, father and son-in-law in 2012 than ever before. Thank you so much for my incredible family. Please bless them this year. I pray for Ryan & Katie that You would continue to provide for them and that You would help Ryan to find a job that challenges and teaches him. Lord, I love you so much!