Galatians

Lord, it’s another stressful morning for me. I don’t regret leaving WDS, but I do want more peace about being on my own, freelancing. I could have guessed that I would not be good at certain aspects of freelancing.. it’s clear that many have tried and failed or given up at it, so it’s ok that I don’t super-love it. But Lord, I pray that You’ll grant me favor in the eyes of those seeking my help. That they would see my deficiencies and want me to work with them anyway. Lord, i pray that You’ll give me wisdom to do the right thing, the next right step. I pray that You would keep me from  burning bridges, and that I wouldn’t get lost down the code hole, and neglect to keep the business coming in. Lord, I just pray for your supernatural wisdom and guidance! I love you so much!

Lord, thank You for Paul’s words in Galatians, a strong reminder that we do not live under the law. I also thank you for his continual call to empathy, and Lord, thank You so much for the empathy that You have given me. I think that my struggle with sexual addiction may have been the biggest reason for the empathy, and its purpose in my life is not lost on me. Thank you for weaving a beautiful tapestry out of my life!

I love you.

Tags: freelance, work

Acts 10-12

Dear Jesus, thank you for you kindness to me. Thank you for giving me the privilege of playing in the band, and for running the sound board. Thank you for giving me the gift to do those things. Lord, thank You for sending the Holy Spirit, and I pray that the Holy Spirit would be alive in me. Today starts another work week, and I know there will be some significant challenges, so I just pray that You will work in and through me, so that nothing I do is out of my own selfish ambitions or laziness, but that I would do my job worthy of Your commendation, and that You would be given the glory. Lord, I pray that You will use my tenure w/ WDS to bring glory to yourself. I pray that I am used by You to accomplish your will, and I pray that You will continually make it clear to me what my purpose is. Thank you for your blessings, and thank you for your blessings on my week.

Lord, I pray you’ll also give Meagan an incredible week, and that she will be amazed at how much energy and patience she has. Help her to do great work at her salon. I love you.

Tags: work

John 18-21, CR Spiritual Inventory 1

God, I thank you for your incredible graciousness. It is not lost on me.. as of right now. Lord, I’m sorry for selfishness, and my depravity. I love you so much, and yet I flounder looking for fulfillment in this life, when I have the author of life at my fingertips and listening to my heart. Lord, thank you for hearing me. Thank you for your omniscience, which we learned about this Sunday, and how it is defined by the fact that there is no upper limit. You are worthy of all my worship, and I’m sorry for when I lose sight. Lord, i pray that you’ll help me to lay my work issues at your feet on a daily basis. I know without a shadow of doubt that you are capable and willing to take my burdens, I just need to simply lay them down. So i am doing that now.. i lay my burdens of work at your feet and trust that you will empower me to make the right decisions today, and to be effective as your servant on this earth and in this company. Forever yours, and I love You!

Tags: burdens, work

Our Daily Bread, Jeremiah 20:7-13

Lord, I haven’t journaled since Thursday when I found out what Elevation Church was going to offer me for salary.  Lord, i trust You.  I know that we could have gone and just had faith, but Lord, I feel that I’m having faith by not going, also.  Lord, i trust that You gave us the wisdom that we needed to make the decision.  Lord, You’ve put the people in my life to offer me wisdom, and You brought me through a lot of life experiences that brought me wisdom.  I feel that You’ve prepared me in my life for this point.  Lord, thank You so much for allowing us to be ok despite the fact that we thought we were going to Charlotte.  I really sometimes have no idea what You’re doing, but Lord, i trust.  I don’t what’s in store for the future for us, but Lord, i know You want to give me the desires of my heart. Two things I desire, (this is me knocing!) to be a loving and gracious dad that my children love and learn from, and to be involved in ministry where I see life-change daily, but also provide valuable service for Your kingdom, doing the things You’ve equipped me to do.  Lord, this prayer isn’t quite sufficient for me, but I know the Holy Spirit sees my heart, and is translating my prayer.  Lord, i LOVE You!

Tags: disappointment, elevation church, parenting, work

Lord, thank You so much for such an exciting weekend for us.  It was such a great opportunity to go and worship with Elevation Church, and see their passion for You.  It’s clear that You are doing things there, and i thank You that You are.  Thank You for keeping Your hand on Pastor Stephen, and giving him people around him to keep him strong.  Lord, i pray that You will be with this situation and i pray that my hope would be in You, so that if my hopes are crashed in this opportunity, that i would not fall, but be on the right foundation.  Thank You so much for Pastor Stephens message that spoke to that.  That being said, Lord You know how badly i want this.  I want it so bad, to be able to go work in such a creative environment, and not only that, but in an environment that’s vibrant and growing, and can’t point to anything but You for their success. Lord, i want to be there.  Lord, but You also know, i only want to do it if it’s right, and i trust that You will make it clear if it’s right or not.  Lord, i thank You again for my incredible job, and life situation the way it is now.  You have provided so much for us, and we love You for taking care of us.  Lord, i love You even if You don’t “take care of us.”  At least i hope that would be true.

Tags: church, elevation church, life, work

Dear God, thank You again for my job and for the money that it’s bringing in right now to help us pay off our debt.  Lord, i can’t describe how excited i am to be paying off our bills!  Thank You again!  Please help sustain me and the family as i’m working long crazy hours these days.  Just help me to be a good dad, and to be a good husband.  Thank You for Meagan for understanding and being so helpful.  Please help us reach our goal today of completing 300 sites for LexisNexis.  I know You can help us.  Please Lord.  Thank You!

Tags: debt, work

Our Daily Bread

Dear God thank You for all of the overtime You allowed me to get, and thank You so much that we were able to pay off our first bill!  Lord, i pray that You would just help me to stay focused and to keep working hard so my paychecks will keep being good.  I pray that You would help us to knock out our debt as quickly and efficiently as possible, and that You would also help us to be wise with our money after we do.  I pray that You would give Meagan and i wisdom when it comes to parenting.  I also pray that You would give us both patience for both the kids and for eachother.  Please forgive me for my impatience, and bad attitude that i’ve had, and please help me when i get in those moods… I don’t want to feel like having a family is prison… It’s just ridiculous sometimes.  I pray that You’d allow our family to have an extremely tight bond.  Lord, i pray that You would hold both of my children (your children) in the palm of Your hands, and that You would never let them go.  I pray that You’ll help us to model Your love so that they see You through us. I pray that Mia would accept You as her savior if she hasn’t.  Lord, i love You so much and thank You for the amazing family You’ve given me!

Tags: debt, family, work