Philippians 2

14 Do all things without grumbling or questioning,
15 that you may be blameless and innocent, children of God without blemish in the midst of a crooked and twisted generation, among whom you shine as lights in the world,

Wow… this is something i’ve not had much success in… not grumbling or questioning… Lord, i pray that You’ll help me with this admonishment and let me be more thankful and gracious! “therefore i have learned whatever state i am to be content.” Another verse that i completely don’t understand! Thank You for the blessings on my life…. thank You for band practice last night and how much fun it was. i pray that You’ll help us to do an incredible job on Sunday and really worship You! Thank You for yesterday and guiding me. i pray again, that You would take over my day, and that i would just be a servant to You. Help to do that and remember that. i am yielded to You… do with me what You want! i love You!

Philippeans 2
12 Therefore, my beloved, as you have always obeyed, so now, not only as in my presence but much more in my absence, work out your own salvation with fear and trembling,
13 for it is God who works in you, both to will and to work for his good pleasure.

Lord, i feel like like that’s definitely me w/o Keith around to sponsor me…. working it out with fear and trembling. i pray that You’ll help me to do it with LESS fear and LESS trembling and Lord, i don’t know why, but right after CR the first time, i had a profound sense of You working through me “both to will and to work for Your good pleasure.” It appears that i have lost most of that dependence, and that awareness. i pray for it back! i want to know that You got my back… Not only do you got my back, but You got my front too and that You are in charge of what i do on this earth! Lord, there are so many things i need to do, i pray You’ll help me wade through which things are the right things! Now i trust that You will help me to do the right things today… i’m yielding my life to You today and believing that You are in control. Thank You for helping me remember this! Help me to talk to Cindy again with wisdom and to accomplish what You want! i love You Lord!

Philippians 1

21For to me, to live is Christ and to die is gain.

Lord, i know the reality of this has not sunk in with me. i keep finding myself having doubts and fears and worries, and judgements and justifications. Lord, i pray that i would be broken over You… i want to be true, that for me to live is Christ! Lord, i know that eternity is going to be amazing… i’ve really come a long way in my understanding of that. However, i still get stuck down here thinking about myself and myself only. i get so wrapped up in my own desires and feelings and when i am self-centered, i am definitely not Christ-centered. Please forgive me! i want to be a willing, humble and broken servant that wants to do whatever You have for me. Not this self-centered, egotistical, afraid, approval addicted, narcissistic, complaining, impatient person that i am being! Please give me wisdom and a PASSION…. A GOD ORIENTED PASSION for whatever it is that You have me to do. Lord, You know my bent… to do whatever falls in my lap. Please please please give me wisdom to know what to do, and to do it well! Lord, i love You so much and just want to please You. i want to be yeilded… isn’t that the whole point of CR? to become yielded vessels for You? Thank You for Your hand in my life. i’m sorry i’ve been ungrateful. i pray for Daniel. Give him the widom and strength to move away from his control issues. i also pray for Joel. i don’t know what You have for him, but i know he’s having a hard time. Give him the grace he needs to deal with this stuff and also Kim…. i have no idea how hard it is for her, but it definitely seems hard! i love You… please give me a productive day filled with doing only the things You would have me to do!!!!

Mark 3
Lord, thank You for reminding me that You are for me! So what can stop me? Lord, i pray that You’ll give me the confidence that comes with being yielded, and to quit being so self-centered and anxious and obnoxious. i’m sorry for the way i acted with Cindy last night. i pray that You’ll help me to make that right, and i also pray that You’ll give me wisdom about how to deal with that situation. i’m not sure what i should do there, but i know You do. i pray You’ll help me to not be arrogant and prideful about where i am in life and crap like that. Please give me wisdom! Also, please help me to start developing the tools i need to deal with these new issues that i’m dealing with! i pray that You’ll help me to keep going to the things that You have given for me to do. Lord, i don’t know what the deal is with speaking but i just really don’t want to do it! i pray You’ll help me write my testimony and that it will bring You maximum glory! i don’t know where to begin or where to end, but You do! If you are for me and then who can stand against? i love You!

It’s me again! Here i am again…. without having done my quiet time. i’m downloading music… Lord, i pray You’ll use it to speak to my heart! i absolutely love when You use music to speak to me! Lord, i love You so much, and thank You for all the things You’ve given to me. Lord, i pray You’ll give me peace! You said that if i seek You kingdom first that You would give me the desires of my heart. Even though painting our home is not a desire of my heart, i am still grateful that i get to do it, and i pray that You’ll help me to stay thankful! i pray that You’ll bless my work, and i especially pray that the rain did not ruin the paint! i pray that it will dry out an be perfect! i know You can make it happen! i love You Lord!

Mark 5

Lord, i need to speak on Friday. i pray You’ll give me the Holy Spirit to help me prepare. Thank You for what You’ve given me so far. i pray that You’ll take this little bit, and cause it to bloom on Friday! i pray that You’ll use my words to touch people and reach them where they are. Please help me to be thorough and concise in my preparation and to have something that people to remember. Please help it touch me in my deepest place, so that it will come out of something real! Lord, i just pray for Your anointing on it! Please be with me as i paint the house, and help the project to go quickly and smoothly. i love You!

Ecclesiastes 4

Lord, i need You! give me wisdom about what to say no to and what to say yes to. i want to do it all, but sadly i can’t do it all. Please help me to do the right things. Lord, i’m not overwhelmed right now, but i sure don’t want to get there. please bless my work on the house and the painting. i love You!

Ecclesiastes 4

Wow… i don’t know why but i get so worked up about everything lately! God, grant me the serenity to accept the things i cannot change and the courage to change the things i can. Help me to be your servant today! Lord, i’m singing today! How cool is that?!

What is this love, given to us
that saved my life, with selfless sacrifice
Although we fail, the cross prevails
Forgiveness stands, You take me back again!

You showed me life, You opened my eyes
so i give You my praise, yah i give You my all!
You showed me life, You opened my eyes
to the truth that there’s no greater love.

Now in the darkness, God’s light shines
Christ forever glorified
So come on, come on, sing out to God
now with all weve got
we live… for You our God!

Salvation’s Strong in Christ Alone
Our Savior King, alone in victory
i step aside, give You my life
For You to move, do what You want to do.

You showed me life, You opened my eyes
so i give You my praise, yah i give You my all
You showed me life, You opened my eyes
To the truth that there’s no greater love

Now in the darkness, God’s light shines
Christ forever glorified
So come on, come on sing out to God
Now with all we’ve got
we live, for you our God.

i can’t imagine life without You, without You
cause it’s all for you, yah it’s all for You, God
i can’t imagine life without You, without You
cause it’s all for You, yah it’s all for You, God
i can’t imagine life without You without You
cause it’s all for You yah it’s all for You God!

now in the darkness
God’s light shines
Christ forever glorified
so come on, come on sing out to God
now with all you’ve got
we live for you our God.

Ecclesiastes 3
Lord, i’m almost in absolute panic mode! Too many things hitting me at once!!!!! Lord, i pray for Meagan’s hair situation. i can’t control or change it and i pray that You’ll guide their hands that they would be able to make it as good as possible! i also don’t know what to do about our financial situation! i really don’t know all the details but it sure looks dim to me, having to pay for plumbers, advertisements, mortgages, etc… i’m just overwhelmed! Please help me!!! Also, we’re opening a new building, and having CR there and we need to have a lot of things in place to pull it off, and i’m singing! aaaahhh… And, i can’t get Jim S. to respond to my email to be paid for the website work i’m doing for him! Why does things happen this way? i pray that You’ll give me the peace that passes understanding right now and not be nervous. Help me!!! i’m sitting here talking to Kellie, and my heart is beating like 80 mph! Should i do something about this?

Update:
my hunch that Meagan’s deal was a joke definitely has helped! Thank You that she is strong with the finances part and not freaking out! Lord, as silly as April Fool’s Day is, thank You for it! Help me to remember Solomon in Ecclesiastes… All is Vanity… unless it’s done for eternity! Help me to work for eternity!

Proverbs 30:
“7 Two things I ask of you; deny them not to me before I die:
8 Remove far from me falsehood and lying; give me neither poverty nor riches; feed me with the food that is needful for me,
9 lest I be full and deny you and say, “Who is the Lord?” or lest I be poor and steal and profane the name of my God.”

Lord, this is my prayer. i know how quickly pride can drop in and pervert my version of the truth. i pray that You’ll protect the truth within me at all times! What an amazing request! Lord, i’m depending on You to give me Your wisdom so i don’t cause people to fall. Also, please give us enough money to live in a way that we can glorify You most effectively! i love You!