Job 8-13, Psalm 124-125

Lord, thank You for Your hand on my life. It’s been a crazy ride for the last couple months. Lord, I’m sitting here two days after Elevation was supposed to give me a response, 9 days after the official interview, and I for the most part, have peace. Lord, I know that whatever happens is up to You. Lord, I pray for Elevation. I pray that You would bless them for their service to you, and I pray that You would divinely guide them to hire those that will be most likely to maximize your glory. Lord I don’t want them to hire me, and then for me to be a stumbling block. Send Your Holy Spirit over their decision. I Love You!!

Lord, thank You do much for David’s example of standing for what is right even when it seemed he could justify doing the wrong thing. Lord, I pray You will give me that kind of wisdom to discern between two perceived right decisions, & to make the right one in Your eyes. Lord thank You so much for blessing me and giving me the wisdom that You have. Thank You for delivering me from the metaphorical lion’s den of sexual addiction. I bless Your name and thank You for it. Please help me to consistently make the right decisions like Troy talked about in his message about Daniel and His willingness to pray to You even when the law told him not too. I pray You’ll help me to continue to make right decisions so that on that day, I will be strong enough to make those tough decisions. I love You Lord!

1 Samuel 18-20, Psalm 86

God, thank You for the David’s life example.  It’s amazing to me the things he did and endured in his lifetime, yet somehow remembered and glorified You through them all!  Thank You for what You have done in my life.  Lord, i pray that You would not let me forget the incredible things that You have done in my life, that I would ever thank and glorify You for it.  Thank You for all that taught me in the difficult times.  Lord, I am You servant. I pray that You’ll bless my life, and my family’s life and that You will use me in incredible ways to bring Your kingdom to this earth. Lord, I pray that You will raise up prophets that speak against the horrors of this nation.  Things like the prostitution and sex trafficking, and sex slaves, and the persecution of gay kids in school. Lord, I pray that You would show them the truth, so that if they choose that life, they know what they’re getting into.  Lord, I just pray that You’ll help me to relate, and speak to the kinds of people that I’m most afraid of.. those who have left the faith.  Lord, I have a hard time knowing how to deal with them, because I can so easily relate to their stories.  Lord, I just pray that You would use my life for your glory.  Thank You so much for what You have done with and through me.  I love You so much!

And Samuel did not see Saul again until the day of his death, but Samuel grieved over Saul. And the Lord regretted that he had made Saul king over Israel. (1 Samuel 15:35 ESV)

Lord I pray that you would not regret putting me where you put me. I pray that by your Holy Spirit You would have me to obey you rather than perceive in my own mind what is good.

1st quarter of 2012: God’s teaching me to not forget like the Israelites. “Don’t Forget.”

Tags: God's teaching

Judges 6-8, Psalms 75 (through the Bible)

Lord, thank Your for the blessings you’ve poured on us.  The place we’re living now is great, and now you’ve allowed me to get a new car. Lord, i pray that You will supernaturally bless that car so that it runs forever with minimal upkeep.  You know how bad I am with maintenance so I pray that You would help me to be better at it.  Lord, thank You for my family and just how wonderful they are.  Thank You for Meagan who tries so hard to be a good mom and wife and it shows.  Thank You that she worships and serves You.  Lord, i just pray now for our big decision about pursuing this job at Elevation.  I pray that You’ll give us a peace that passes understanding as You said You would.  I pray that You’ll shower us in wisdom from Your word, from our friends that we trust, and from our family.  I pray that You will give us contentment and excitement for whatever decision we make. Lord, You are in control, and I KNOW that whatever we decide that You have our best interests in mind.  That You love us too much to allow us to make a decision that would injure our family.  I pray for Meagan’s sadness, that You would swoop in and embrace her, and give her the courage to move forward with this decision. I pray that You would use her and others to tell me if we’re not supposed to go. But Lord most of all, thank You so incredibly much for this opportunity and for allowing my dreams to become a reality.  You weren’t kidding when you said that You would give us the desires of our heart.  Lord, I’ve prayed it many times, and You know how I feel about it, but a deep desire of my heart is to know You intimately through doing Your work on earth in great and mighty ways.  I don’t know what that looks like, and I think right now I’m too afraid to flesh it out, but Lord, I don’t want a “safe” life.  I know You are the one that keeps us safe, so I want to live my life in a way that pushes the limits of our faith, and has to depend on You. Lord, I love You so much and i pray that You will speak to me about this.

Tags: decisions, Elevation, family

God, I’m so ashamed, sad, & dejected after masturbating this morning for the first time since living at dreamweaver court. I wish I could go back in time. It’s feels what I imagine losing your virginity may feel like. Lord I pray that you and Meagan will forgive me as well as myself. I also pray that you’ll help me to stick with this year Bible reading plan and that it will be transformative. I pray that you’ll help me to be a Bette husband, father and son-in-law in 2012 than ever before. Thank you so much for my incredible family. Please bless them this year. I pray for Ryan & Katie that You would continue to provide for them and that You would help Ryan to find a job that challenges and teaches him. Lord, I love you so much!

Psalms 19, Proverbs 19, Generation Ex-Christian

Dear God, thank You for my life, and for the way in which you organized it and ordained, and directed it like a watercourse.  I see how my current faith is reflected in the way situations lined up in my life. Lord, i also am starting to see how believers walk away from You.  Lord, it is breaking my heart reading this book, “Generation Ex-Christian” as i read about men and women just like me, but in a place of rejecting You… And Lord, I hear their stories and arguments, and can empathize.. If my life had been directed in those ways, I’d probably be in the same place.  it’s only by Your grace that I’ve been allowed to see and find You and i pray that i keep You.. or better yet, that You keep me. Lord, it makes me hurt to know there are so many leavers out there, and to feel like You’re allowing it. Lord, i know You are so great, and You’re plans are perfect, but why does it have to be this way? But Lord, i thank You for this newfound passion You’re putting in my heart.  Lord, i want to do ministry!  Lord, You know my heart.  You know that i long to do something great for You.  Lord, before i get to complainy… thank You for my current situation.  It is an amazing place to be, and my job is amazing.  Thank You for what You have provided to me. Lord, I pray for Katie and Ryan. Katie that You would comfort her during these few months where the pain is great, and Ryan as he’s stuck in these dead-end jobs with no ambition.  Lord, it feels so self-centered and so trivial, but i pray for my parenting… I don’t know why, but sometimes i’m just a straight up miserable parent.  It’s shameful.  I pray that You’ll tenderize my heart for the position, and help me to do it well.  Lord, i love You!

Psalms 8, Proverbs 8

Lord, thank You for Jewel’s beautiful smile, and for Meagan’s nice looking butt.  I’m going to make it my goal to thank You for something meaningful every time I journal.  Thank You for my healthy family.  Lord, I pray for Ryan and Katie that You would comfort them and give them peace during this difficult time.  I know they were really looking forward to having this child, but that was not part of Your purpose.  Lord, i also beg You to help me with my general lack of interest in the Bible. I feel like such a heathen even saying that, but You know it’s true, so no use hiding it.  I need to get used to being honest with You.  You know how selfish, depraved, and prideful I am.  I pray that You’ll help me to reconnect with You.  I just realized that I’m too comfortable with sitting on my ass, not being willing to go do stuff for the kingdom.  Lord, i pray that You’ll shake that up, that You would set a fire under my butt that wouldn’t allow me to sit.  I know I’m asking for pain now, but Lord, i just want to live my life with purpose, and i’m not sure i’m doing that right now, as much as i love working on the computer.  Anyway, thankfully You know my heart, and know what it is that i really want, as well as having a plan for me that is perfect.  Lord, I also pray for our generation… I know i’ve sung that song, Hosanna, several times, and like Luke said Tiffany said, have we ever meant it?  Are we praying for our generation, much less praying for them fervently?  Lord, i do pray that You will show Yourself to this generation, that they wouldn’t live their life in ignorance of You and Your power.  I pray that You would wake us up, and bring about the change in America that it so desperately needs. I pray that we would get over ourselves and thinking that we’re so smart.  Lord, i love You!

Tags: apathetic, generation

Our Daily Bread

Lord, thank you for my family, and thank You so much that Meagan and I get to go on an overnight trip to Myrtle Beach, and a concert.  We’re so excited to get away and again thank You for the opportunity.  I pray that we have an amazing time, and that You bless it.  Lord, also thank You for a great talk with Keith yesterday.  It was so great to be able to share what You’ve taught me with someone else, and for them to “get it” like You helped me “get it.”  I pray that You’ll continue to be with Keith during this point in his life.  I know he is making huge strides, and i know that You’ve been with him till this point.  I just pray that You’ll use him to do incredible things, and that he will bless You for the hard times.  I also pray for the Poletti’s that You would bless them financially.  Please send some money from them that they don’t expect, and please bless Dave’s work, that he would finally get something that would be through and final.  Lord, i pray that You would use me where I am and that I would be content.  Please help me to play guitar well, and to learn these bar chords really well.  I love You and thank You for helping me learn guitar!

Tags: friends, guitar